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2009-11-18T11:30:00.000+08:00

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2005-11-27T03:42:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging just because I feel a need to raise awareness in whoever reads my blog on a new virus that is spreading like wildfire. Reading this entry might help those who are clueless about this irritating, mass-mailing virus.If you recieve an email with the following subject, for the love of your pc, do not open it!1. Your Password2. hi, ive a new mail address3. Paris Hilton & Nicole Richie4.

2005-11-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of having to explain myself to people who mean nothing to me. This blog has been a loyal companion for the past 3 years and though it pains me to say, I have decided to move to a better place. Somewhere not many will know. Maybe searching for it on google might help. You can try your luck. I'll be flattered to know that there are people out there willing to do such a thing (ha ha!). So,

2005-11-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

This will be a very image heavy entry. Hari Raya stills. There are a lot more but I'll just put up the resized ones.First outing was with my secondary school friends but before that, my students paid me a visit.My best friends in secondary school.The following day, visiting with NYP friends.Haikel's parrot that meows.Last weekend was with colleagues come NYP-ians.Sha's car.Nana's car.That's all.

2005-11-20T11:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went visiting again with my colleagues and since all of us were from NYP, there were a couple other NYP students who were our mutual friends joined in. I drove Nana's lancer for awhile. I didn't drive Sha's cause I was afraid I might scratch it. I might get used to driving an auto. An auto is for very malas people like me. No clutch hassle. So we went to 8 houses from 5pm till 1am.I

2005-11-17T08:45:00.000+08:00

So I'll be heading to Club Momo later with my colleagues in Geoffrey's pimped up van. We'll be attending a design forum. Interesting.My eye's swollen again. Last 3 times, it was on my left eye. Now, it's on my right but it's not as bad because it's at the lower lid. Doesn't swell up that much but hurts like a mofo.I walked into a puddle of water. My jeans got wet. My electro heels got wet but

2005-11-16T09:23:00.000+08:00

When everyone has left me here,I'll make it on my own,Just wait and see. Maybe if you came back down,You'd see it happening to you,Maybe you'd even care.Hear me out,I don't think you'll make it out.Hear me out,See the writing on the wall.Burn your bridge and wearYour heart out on your sleeve,You know you won't fool me. You made all these promises,You broke all these promises to me.Follow your

2005-11-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

My weekend so far has been crazy! Packed with surprises and outings with long lost friends. ^_^I grew up with these girls and we grew apart over the years. Yesterday we met and yet, we still got it going on. One is in Uni, another a well-paid personal assistant, the next a banker, and me, a teacher. We're everything that we never expected to be. I love them! And yes, I was wearing a kebaya top

2005-11-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

I simply adore fair kids. (Somehow, I don't feel attracted to dark babies. No offence.) They are so fucking cute, especially when they're not afraid of strangers. I can't stand those who cry when separated from the mummy. Irritating. Tsk.Lisha and IShe is a year plus already believe it or not but yet she is so friggin' small! She looks like a 9 months old baby. Lisha's really smart despite the

2005-11-07T16:39:00.000+08:00

Seusia malamku menantimuDihembus embun aku tersipuMungkinkah kau lupa temujanji kitaKau gembira bersama teman-temanmuBerlari-lari ku mencarimuSelembut salju musim berlaluMengapa berubah sekelip mataHatiku gundah tiada terhinggaKau umpama merpati putihPatah sayapnya di udaraKau umpama merpati putihPatah sayapnya di udaraMerbahaya - Merpati Putih By OAGDuring lunch, I bought myself a pair of black

2005-11-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

It seems everyone's putting stills of their Hari Raya 2005 outings and stuff. I'll jump on the bandwagon and do just the same only I won't be in baju kurung. No mood for that.So for starters,Irfan, I gave my first green packet to him! He threw it back at me. -_-"I gave the next 3 to her and her sisters.She has 2 sisters. Both can't keep still so, no pictures of them.This, because I just had to.I

2005-11-06T14:53:00.000+08:00

I had an invitation to go to Momo last night but I turned it down just because I didn't feel like being in a huge crowd. Instead, I met up with some friends at Ice Cold Beer for drinks. The chicken wings are to die for! You must must try it! Prior to that, I was at Shaw watching a friend strut his stuff on stage for Female's 50 Most Gorgeous People show. I've got invites for the finals at Zouk

2005-11-04T18:16:00.000+08:00

I took leave today but spent the entire day at home entertaining guests. I abosulutely hate entertaining my nieces. Irritating kids. They mess up everything!Anyway, yesterday, 1 Syawal, also marked Kausar's 21st birthday. How lucky of him to be able to celebrate his 21st birthday on this glorious day. I didn't get to wish him in person but I texted him instead. I wanted to meet him today but he's

2005-11-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

So a month has passed and Hari Raya Puasa is tomorrow. For those who refrained from eating, drinking, smoking, swearing during the day time, time to celebrate and for those who didn't, why are you so happy? Tsk tsk.I slept after I came home from work. Woke up and did some more cleaning. Broke my fast and mopped the floor. I know, I'm hardworking. Right.Yeah, I got a haircut. My hairdresser cut

2005-11-02T09:20:00.000+08:00

Normally, I wouldn't let my dates or whoever I'm out with send me home or walk me to my door. I feel that it is an invasion of privacy somehow unless he is someone I've known for a relatively long time. Yesterday, however, I let him walk me home. I don't know why but I didn't really say no. I guess, I really enjoyed his company and finally, someone my age. I've had about enough of men younger

2005-11-02T00:43:00.000+08:00

I've got work later but I'm still up. I can't sleep but I'm tired. Skeleton Key, I don't know how to describe it. I was rather restless. I found myself rather irritating. -_-"I simply love the Chicken Little advert in the movies. So bloody cute. I think I look like the chicken. Vewy cute, I know. ^_^Oh yes, I was thinking of the Chicken Little song and yes, finally, I got the title thanks to a

2005-10-31T01:30:00.000+08:00

I went to town. Met up with Kausar and Imy. Shopped a little. Then headed to Arab St to break fast. After so long I've not had Nasi Lemak, wow, their's tasted like a million bucks! While sipping teh tarik and having smokes, someone suggested going to Geylang. Since I've yet to go, I went. The crowd felt less stuffy cause they were playing the "3 for $10" game. I shan't elaborate. But it was funny

2005-10-30T13:55:00.000+08:00

I was suppose to accompany Din shopping yesterday but instead, I did most of the shopping. Not for Hari Raya though. Dinner was McDonalds. It seemed like ages since I had McDonalds fries with BBQ sauce. It was heavenly. Dessert was also err, an out of this world experience. ^_^Today, what am I to do today? I've done my share of spring cleaning and I might meet Kausar and I don't know who else

2005-10-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

I got it off my chest finally. The outcome wasn't anywhere near my crazy imagination. Thank God for that.I've been pretty busy with work. I've not heard a single Hari Raya song. I don't even feel festive. I'm not taking leave for raya. I'm too lazy but then again, I just might.Had dinner with Din. A pretty fast one I must add. I was tired and so was he. I need to go for a haircut. I've yet to

2005-10-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

Maybe we crossed paths because he knows best in situations as such. Usually, I'll be the logical one but this time around, I'm not. Maybe we met because God has plans for me that I know not of. He gives me comfort even when I think I have no way out. Maybe we aren't meant to be together but instead to be for each other until this shit that I am in is over. Shit most of you will never encounter.

2005-10-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

I had a fantastic day. Work was great for once. My boss was in a good mood. Oh yes, my left eye is starting to swell up again. I suspect it's the saw dust from the Model Making module. I shouldn't be in the workshop too much.The other night, I had a dream. It was my typical dream; being chased by ghosts/vampires/baddies. The weird thing was, in this recent dream, I was chased by Pontianaks. I ran

2005-10-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

Had dinner with Kausar and Dapit at Century Square. We had our fill and it was followed by a game of Scrabble. I bought the travel version of Scrabble so I carry it around most times. Get this! Dapit won. 239 points or something. Kausar was at 200. I was at 196. Pfftt..! Dapit was actually trailing far behind. I always come out last at games. Even Din beat me at Scrabble. Damn it.

2005-10-18T11:18:00.000+08:00

I've not been blogging much mainly because I've been too busy with marking and err, going out. A quick recap, Friday was yummy bonesteak at Beach Road. Saturday was Breeks at Ang Mo Kio. Sunday was Sabar Menanti, whose son is my sister's colleague. He must be rich. Good food with great company. Bought material for my baju kurungs/kebayas at Arab Street where I bumped into Adam's parents who

2005-10-14T13:52:00.000+08:00

I woke up at noon today. The weather's so cooling and grey. I left my mobile at work, I think. I cannot recall when I last held it. Bummer. At least I have an excuse to buy a new mobile! ^_^ The new lecturer came in yesterday. He looks so not happening. At least Jeff, Jean and Fairouz are people who likes laugh.I'm going out ard 3pm. Heading to err..Arab St, I think. I'm not sure. Oh ya, Liyana

2005-10-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

This frustration is killing. Overworked and underpaid. I cannot be at three places at the same time. I cannot do the task of a lecturer, a purchasing officer, a technical officer and a secretary. FUCKING HELL, I AM NOT THE FUCKING FLASH! I feel like crying. No matter how much effort I put in at work, nothing seems to please him. He sees only the bad points, never the good. Taking credit that does

2005-10-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

My boss is a LIAR! He can blatantly lie in front of us when we already know the truth of the matter. Me and another colleague were laughing at him for thinking that we were born yesterday. Pfftt..Yesterday, broke fast with Din somewhere in Sembawang. I don't really know where the place is but damn, the food was good and friggin' cheap. The service was spectacular as well. The stall owner even

2005-10-10T09:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was great. It was fantastic despite blacking out a few minutes before breaking fast. I felt dizzy suddenly. I started seeing stars and my hearing was muffled. I walked a step away from the bin and I fainted or so they told me. The next thing I knew, I was in cold sweat and my ass and head hurt like a mofo. Apparently, I landed, ass first and my head banged onto the bin. Great. I was

2005-10-08T16:04:00.000+08:00

So my left eye is swollen. It started to hurt on Wednesday. I thought nothing of it. Thursday, I felt a bump on my eyelid. Friday, it swelled up like a mofo, or so I thought. Today, ha ha, today, it swelled up twice the size! Damn it! I couldn't even open my eyes when I woke up but it seems better now. So here's what my eye looks like.Ugly isn't it?

2005-10-08T11:02:00.000+08:00

I know I've been mistakenBut just give me a break and see the changes that I've madeI've got some imperfectionsBut how can you collect them all and throw them in my faceBut you always find a way to keep me right here waitingYou always find the words to say to keep me right here waitingAnd if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waitingSearching for the things to say to keep you right

2005-10-06T11:37:00.000+08:00

Second day of the fasting month. So far, so good. I don't feel hungry most of the time at work but I get ticked off easier than other days. I think it's because of the lack of nicotine in my system. ISO audit come Monday. Sigh. So much paperwork that I've neglected. Well, at least it keeps me busy.Anyway, Stone Temple Pilots kick major ass!Waiting on a Sunday afternoon for what I read between the

2005-10-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

You should see how they rock each others' worlds. She feels like she has the Golden Ticket!She is in love, haven't you heard?

2005-10-05T08:58:00.000+08:00

It's the first day of the fasting month. I woke up at 4.45am and was greeted by great rainy weather. I woke up late after that for work. I've not had my morning smoke and coffee. Feeling a bit grogy but heck, it's all for the better. :) Who knows, I might even just stop now that smoking has been banned at bus interchanges and come 2007, it'll be banned on the entire island.Looks like the

2005-10-03T08:05:00.000+08:00

Some how, I cannot recall what I did during the weekends. It feels rather blurry and vague. I don't know why but I feel tired. I'm getting the flu soon enough. The flu, the worst virus ever. Sigh. Well, today is a brand new day and let's start with big bang!Oh yes, snippets from the weekend.Guess where this is?And yes, my student is going into the chocolate business. He made these.And this is

2005-10-01T12:54:00.000+08:00

Sanding, sawing, filing, gluing, drilling mdf boards is making my nose runny and my throat sore. I really need to buy a half-face respirator before Monday. The dumb dust mask doesn't work. But the model making module is fun despite the mess. I can't wait to see their final product!Each time I call Kausar, he never fails to sound happy/excited. It's refreshing to hear the change in this tone of

2005-09-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

Had fried mars bar with Kausar in the evening after so long of not meeting. He was looking good. He's lost weight and grown a bit darker but looking good still. His smell. His oh so familiar smell, so clinical, so fresh. I love it! The way he nudges my arm when I say something dumb, the way he'd pinch the very tip of my ear because he finds them cute. -_-" I miss him so much. The quirky things he

2005-09-27T08:30:00.000+08:00

So I wasn't late for work. The Campus Manager, was addressing the students in the morning about blogging. Of how they shouldn't post comments that may land them in court. One classic example, the two nitwits who made racist remarks on their blog and got charged for it. Their names sprawled across the newspaper and not to forget pictures! That takes the cake man.Today, he said, 5 girls were

2005-09-26T12:48:00.000+08:00

You could be my unintendedChoice to live my life extendedYou could be the one I'll always loveYou could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitionsYou could be the one I'll always loveI'll be there as soon as I canBut I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had beforeFirst there was the one who challengedAll my dreams and all my balanceShe could never be as good as youYou could be my

2005-09-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

Overdosage of paracetamol and chocolates to combat my monthly menstural cramps. Now, I feel overly drowsy. Went out for dinner with heavy eyes. Not a good idea.I don't know if it's the mood swings or if it's just me but I feel angered by something/one. I feel emo as well. I feel like I really miss Kausar but I would think that it's the fluctuating emotions triggered by my menses. Ah well, just so

2005-09-25T01:46:00.000+08:00

I had a great day. I love overtaking other drivers and being good at it. Right. Spent half the day at home. Went out for a movie and supper with a couple of friends. I thought I saw Mr Hotstuff where I was but maybe it was the caffeine. Whichever, doesn't really matter. Mr Hotstuff, that's old school man. When was the last time I called him that? The movie was great eventhough I've watched it

2005-09-24T09:53:00.000+08:00

Work ended at 1pm for me yesterday. I had to accompany the students to ITE MP for a soccer session with Lim Tong Hai. So about 1.30pm, I was off! On my way home! Met up with Din for early dinner and then headed home. Lazed in bed, ate and slept. Woke up at 8pm and Din asked to meet him and a few other friends for drinks. Din had 2 litres of Absolut! Vanilla and Raspberri. So yes, Din mixed the

2005-09-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

Had late dinner with Din just now. Went out at 9 and I got home at 10. Pfftt..fast right?! I don't believe myself.Listening to love songs makes me feel rather inspired do to something but it'll probably take a lot of planning and time. I'll probably do it this weekend since I've decided not to make any plans. I'll load it here when it's done.The flu bug has been spreading in the office and

2005-09-21T11:51:00.000+08:00

By the way you brought me here,it makes me believethe best is still yet to comeand I don't want to leave.Forgive my hesitation- oh, but I'm learning to trust in you.Help me to dream these dreams because I don't have a clue.If you'd be honest and say what you meanyou know I would promise I'd do anythingbecause I know that without you I'm giving it away.Is this what you wanted?Cause I'm willing to

2005-09-20T08:15:00.000+08:00

Aww..it has almost been a year and you're still bitter about me calling you a whore (which you are, apparently). You're so cute (as in rather rodent looking) and I'm so flattered that you still think it matters. Hee..A few major events have been taking place recently, of which will have a great impact on life. I will not disclose anymore information here. Only family and close friends will know.

2005-09-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

Today, I recieved devastating news of the sudden death of a student of ITE Bishan. Muhammad Iskandar Abu Bakar died from drowning while on a fishing trip with his uncle somewhere off Sembawang Park. Only 17 years old, he had a whole lifetime ahead of him. I knew him as a smiley and polite young man. He would always acknowledge me when we met along the corridors in school. To think that I met him

2005-09-18T17:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was hot! Hot! Hot! Hot! There was about 15 of us. Sha got a cake in the club courtesy of Az and Kin. Sha got a kiss on the cheek from John Molina. Sha got to take a huggy-huggy picture with John Molina. Sha was called up onto stage by John Molina where John Molina then grinded her for the longest 5 minutes of my life! And to top things up, HE FUCKING TONGUED HER! Oh how jealous the 10

2005-09-17T01:43:00.000+08:00

Lunch was at Arab St. Personally, I wouldn't have gone there any other day but I was forced so I went reluctantly. Thank god the food was good. Finally got something for Shaheedah's birthday bash tomorrow. After so many years of not buying a gift for a girlfriend, I realise now why I never bothered to buy birthday gifts for girls. It's so freaking difficult to get the perfect gift or anything

2005-09-15T09:53:00.000+08:00

Another lepak session at Causeway Point with him and another friend. No offence but that was the longest 3 hours of my life! I feel less awkward around him now. ^_^I'll be on leave tomorrow! Woo hoo! Going shopping with him later after work. Getting Shaheedah her birthday present. Speaking of which, we're throwing her a party this Saturday. EI students, ITE Bedok staff and students (if they're

2005-09-14T08:37:00.000+08:00

Funny how I've waited 30 days for his return and now that he is back, it feels different. When he wasn't around, I felt rather carefree. Carefree meaning on most days, I don't have plans so I head home and go out later on when I actually have plans. Like, I don't have to be anywhere at any given time. I have to admit, I pictured seeing him after 30 days differently in my head. He's grown bigger;

2005-09-13T08:32:00.000+08:00

HE IS BACK BITCHES! Woo hoo! I'm practically doing a chicken dance in the office. 30 days of endurance, 30 days of patience, 30 days has made me damn horny. Ha ha ha! Now, I must listen to Woo Hoo by The 5 6 7 8s! I'm meeting him later in the evening! But, he's sick. Sorethroat and flu. He must have been drinking and smoking too much. -_-" Oh, who the hell cares, HE'S BACK!

2005-09-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

Seven years and fifty daysThe time is passing byNothing in this world could beAs nice as you and INow I run to youLike I always doWhen I close my eyesI think of youSuch a lonely girlSuch a lonely worldWhen I close my eyes I dreamI'll return to youLike I always doWhen I close my eyesI think of youSuch a lonely girlSuch a lonely worldWhen I close my eyes I dream of youSeven years and fifty daysNow

2005-09-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

I am so very tired. I think I'll go to sleep after this. My legs are aching but today was a good experience. ^_^I want to fetch him from the airport, Tuesday morning. His plane takes off at 4am on Tuesday. 10am is his time of arrival. He refuses to let me miss work just to fetch him. But, that won't stop me. I'll still be there, waiting patiently till I see him. I wouldn't mind taking the day off

2005-09-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

I had just about enough of me being the baddie. I threw all the cards out onto the table for my dad to understand my actions. In the end, he did and now I have my peace and quiet. I went out for a smoke and it occured to me that he is only 2 days away! By the time I wake up on Tuesday morning for work, he'll be sound asleep in his own bed. I can't wait.H just texted me, *tap tap squeeze*. Nothing

2005-09-10T18:24:00.000+08:00

Thanks, you've made my life officially unbearable. My dad demands to know why I look so glum and of course my mom probably told him parts of the story I told her. I hate him. I really do. USE YOUR FUCKING BRAINS LA FUCK! Stop saying, "I don't know." or "Anything ah.." It's just irritating. That's why I left. I know the reason is not valid to some but I just can't stand it anymore. I hate it when

2005-09-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

The lepak session with the guys ended near 5. Naz's flying off to Thailand later today. It was 5 hours well spent with 2 close friends that I've not seen since only God knows when. Surprisingly, we bumped into more NYP graduates, 6 of them to be exact. It was like a mini gathering. Nice. ^_^ We're planning to go to go away in December. Finally. People with real getaway plans! Hee.I've got no

2005-09-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

My mother often asks me why I am so stren with my boyfriends. I keep giving her the same reason, "My kindness is always taken advantage of." And tonight I proved to her that even the nicest of boyfriends, will turn mean towards me. I took my mother's words and I tried being nice. I have not raised my voice or be rude to him the past few months but now, I'm the dumbass left hanging by a miserable

2005-09-08T12:34:00.000+08:00

Maybe most of you already know this but yeah, Rouge just sent me an email confirming the rumours I've been hearing. Yay! But now, Rouge will be full of people just like China Bar. Then again, that place is so small. They closed down because the management didn't let John Molina take over the place and the band walked out on them, or so I've heard. The only reason why I would go to China Bar. I

2005-09-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I even bother. I mean, whatever I do, it always turns out the same. I can never find peace at the rate I am going. Nothing/No one will be enough for me. I keep wanting more. I'm truly frustrated but I don't show half the time. I rarely feel emo. Usually that happens when I listen to lancau love songs. Love songs are evil. So is one of my stupid students. Name will not be

2005-09-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

Today marks the 2nd year of my friendship with Kausar. The many things we went through. Exactly one year ago, he gave me a diamond ring, a white gold necklace and pendant. Nothing too extravagant but I loved them no less. He is the first person to be sincere about being my friend when we first met. He was so naive, so kind. He's grown up now, thanks to me, I hope. (Right!) We're still tight. The

2005-09-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

I had a pretty mellow weekend. Met up with H on Saturday evening. We had dinner and fried mars bar for dessert. Fried mars bar! H introduced it to me. It was orgasmic but I got sick of it after a couple of spoonfuls. I was home near 11pm. Early isn't it? Sam texted me a tad too late asking me to meet up with him. At 1am, when he texted, I was already asleep thanks to painkillers. Painkillers for

2005-09-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

I listen when H laments about love and his ex. The things she said to him. The reasons she gave him. I find them all way too familiar. Lines, I used way back. Lines, I used to let the guy down gently. Lines, I used when I don't have feelings for him anymore. How naive can H get? Get over her. It's difficult but it's clear to me that she sees him as nothing more than a safety net. Girls will

2005-09-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

Today was really short. I left the office at 1pm with Fairouz to attend a course at ITE HQ. Friday usually ends at 5pm for me but today, it ended at 5.45 in the freaking afternoon. >.< Met up with H for coffee at Suntec. Human traffic was horrible! Bleargh. The weather's good though. Ah well, he is only 10 days away! Yay!

2005-09-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

I had a great day today. Went out with H. He was surprisingly fun to be around. ^_^ Watched The Maid, finally, I don't know what to make of that movie. I want to say that it's bad but it had its good parts. Watch it if you have too much time on hand. H didn't know what to watch so we sissors, paper, stone-ed between The Perfect Catch and The Maid. Well, today was good ah. That's it. I've got work

2005-08-31T20:53:00.000+08:00

Went to the hospital after work. It was just a minor operation. All is well now. Thank god. ^_^ I'm back at home now. Going back in the morning. Tomorrow, no work! No work! Woo hoo! I'm darn sleepy and I do not know why. Typhoon is hitting where he is. I hope he is indoors where it is safe.Welcome Home by Coheed & CambriaYou could have been all I wantedBut you weren't honestNow get in the

2005-08-31T14:51:00.000+08:00

Please bear with me as I indulge in a "showing-off" session because it is afterall my FIRST TEACHERS' DAY! The cake and drinks were good but the perfomance by students were lame. Bored me out of my mind but thanks for the effort. To my surprise, my students actually got gifts for me. So sweet. I'll remember this day for as long as I am not senile. So anyway, pictures before I leave the office.We

2005-08-30T10:06:00.000+08:00

On my way to work, I saw 2 familiar faces. Diana and his brother. I didn't notice Diana until Sembawang. His brother is so good looking! So chinese. Too bad he's married. Young, good looking, loaded but married. Party pooper. Well, at least I'm going out with him who is part his brother. Heh. I don't think his brother recognises me because he's only seen me in pictures. Thursday is a holiday. ITE

2005-08-30T00:48:00.000+08:00

Had a spanking great time just now! The Turk guy is hilarious. Like a Mr Bean who actually speaks. A 26 year old computer engineer, with a Masters Degree, residing in Istanbul, who has honey, jam, olives, cheese and toast for breakfast. He's not as funny online. (O_O) Well, I hope he had a good last day in Singapore. At least he'll have nice things to say about Singaporeans to his friends in

2005-08-29T18:56:00.000+08:00

So, my old time secondary school friend said I look "tembam" now by looking at my picture on the left. I thought it was the angle the picture was taken. I went home, I stood on the weighing scale and it showed, to my horror, 47kg!! I was only 41kg 3 months back. Yes, I am FAT!Damn, must have been the eating and sleeping routine I've adopted as of late. No worries. I won't go on a crash diet or

2005-08-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

Oh my god, I love this song! I've never paid attention to the lyrics until yesterday. The lyrics so amazing. So heartfelt in a twisted way. My theme song for the rest of the week.In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth: 3 by Coheed and CambriaA broad incision sits across the eveningThe victim to our fathers lost warThe restless children sit and mourn the gravesOf those they've never seen beforeWill

2005-08-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

After all the drama yesterday, Kausar asked me to go out with him today. He bought new Adidas shoes. They're really nice and he was being really nice. Somehow it was refreshing to see him today. It didn't feel soggy or draggy like other times. He was different in a good way today. I like the change. ^_^I, on the other hand, had a bad hair day.My new bag. Looks better in person.

2005-08-28T18:09:00.000+08:00

I just got my period. No PMS, no horrible cramps this time round. It's been way too long since I've had an easy period. @_@ That explains my horny-ness and the fluctuating emotions.Some pictures from IPP's bbq last Monday.Coincidentally, it was Norman's 18th birthday as well. The class bought him a birthday cake while I got him a box of Swiss chocolates that he refused to share with anyone. -_-

2005-08-28T02:58:00.000+08:00

Last minute, Gene was free for coffee and movie. So he came all the way to the north just to burn time with me. We had coffee and watched the dumbest movie ever! Land of the Dead. Bleargh. Dumbass movie. The spoof, Shaun of the Dead is so much more entertaining. Finally I got my ride on his bike eversince he became a legal rider!Gene's (he's in the bg) Daystar.His helmet.Because I just HAD to!It

2005-08-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

So, I realise that I DO NOT HAVE FRIENDS! Ha ha, I have people that I know but none of them are friends. I had a lot of plans today but one by one, cancelled on me. Damn irritating, I tell ya. Kausar fucking hates me. HE HATES ME! Like as if I destroyed his life or something. Typical. Breaking up doesn't mean you can't be friends. Being together, he was my best friend and to me, he'll always be

2005-08-27T10:06:00.000+08:00

I slept at 8.45pm last night out of sheer boredom. I had nothing to do at all! So I read a book while munching kokokrunch in bed until I fell asleep soon after. Yes, yes, I didn't brush my teeth before I dozed off. Oh well, who cares. It's not like I have anyone to kiss anyway. I woke up thrice. Once at 11+ because Adam was calling but I can't remember if I answered. Another time was at 2am

2005-08-26T13:21:00.000+08:00

You don't talk about pride when yours is non existent. Come on, everyone knows that. You're practically shameless and somehow, everyone seems to love it. They pretend to be your friends because they love your shamless-ness. I'm one of those people. We go behind your back and bitchfest about you and your stories which is always a crowd pleaser.But please, don't be preaching about pride to others

2005-08-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

The staffroom got a new coat of paint. We wanted the walls to be black cause it would match the cement floors pretty well. Cement because we don't like the idea of carpets and the germs they carry. But no, they painted it the same fucking pale green. Bleargh! So much for my boss telling us that the color is entirely up to us. Bollocks! Urgh. I leaned on an almost dried freshly painted wall. My

2005-08-24T08:53:00.000+08:00

I'm having a fantastic morning! I do not know what triggered it but yeah, I feel good. Only 19 days left! Woohoo!Today Baz is going for her 2nd interview with Silk Air. I hope she makes it. I mean, if I can't make it, I'll be happy if someone as deserving as her gets through. Live the dream that I can't. I mean, she's hardworking and all. One of the few ITE grads that I know who actually gained

2005-08-23T08:53:00.000+08:00

Overdued stills at DXO.Male ModelsFemale ModelsGerri and Musa having fun with Think magSham (to protect his superhero identity) and IStills courtesy of Sham. Mine are still in my camera. I'm too lazy! I feel like having Macdonald's breakfast but the weather is not allowing me to go out of the office. Damn it!The Weakest - EmeryPoint the gun in your wayJust pretend that it is timeSay the word and

2005-08-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

My mode of transport home was a Scrambler! The owner, I met at the bbq. My student's brother's friend. He's about my age, well, there about but definitely older than my students. So sweet, he let me wear his jacket because he didn't want me to be cold. My ass hurt like a motherfucker when I got off his bike due to the excessive throttling (is that even right?).In the end, he asked for my number.

2005-08-22T17:04:00.000+08:00

Today has been pretty good. Had a meeting at ITE MP in the morning till lunch. Lunch was at Parkway, Kartika Restaurant, courtesy of my boss. We wanted Banquet at first but he insisted on eating at a restaurant. Me and Fairouz exchanged looks when we realised that our boss doesn't eat at foodcourts. 0_0 The food was ok la. I've never been a fan of Indonesian cuisine. But hey, it was free! Free

2005-08-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

I wonder if he reads my blog. He says he doesn't because he'd rather hear me whine in person. 21 days left. It has been only a week. 3 weeks left.I've been downloading lots of techno and dnb songs today. It's just one of those days where screamo doesn't work for me. @_@ I even downloaded the Ding Dong Song, yeah, I did! LOL! Oh, also the Crazy Frog. Pfftt! I can't stand that frog. Damn irritating

2005-08-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

Is it just me, or is every-fucking-one I know is busy today? It is a rainy day and all, perfect weather for sleeping but I'm itching to go out. Watch a movie or have hot cocoa or something. Sigh. Times like these, I wish he was around. Ah well, he isn't so what's the use in whining?Sham's still asleep. I won't be meeting him today to pass stuff to him. It's still raining.The perfect song for a

2005-08-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

Ok I know most of you will say, "WHAT THE FUCK?" when I write what I am going to write but what the hell, it's my fucking blog!Eh Bitch, why do you have to always copy the things I do?! Can you be more original for crying out loud?! Go copy someone else! If it's some other hot girl, I don't mind but it's YOU! Bleargh! You, of all people! It's not flattering. It's insulting. So STOP IT!That's it.

2005-08-20T02:09:00.000+08:00

DXO was great! Chilling with Sham at the lounge area with his group of friends while watching people I know go up and down the stairs, running about and jumping like monkeys. Sham told me to say hello to them but I was happier using them as a source of jokes amongst us! Heh.. I am in love with Sham's Lumix digicam. Damn it! I'll upload pictures when I have the energy. For now, I'll just sleep

2005-08-19T18:28:00.000+08:00

So yes, I am at home on a Friday evening. I'll be going out later to meet up with Sham for the Puma show thingey around 8. After which, I do not know what we'll be doing. Probably we'll end up having drinks of some sort.Today, is Hana's (the attachment student working at our dept) last day. So to thank her for all the work she's done, we had a spanking good lunch at Breeks! Yeah. Funny thing is

2005-08-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

> > 1st thief : Oh ! The police is here. Quick! Jump> out> > of the window> > 2nd thief : But this is the 13th floor.> > 1st thief : Hurry! this is no time for> > superstitions.> > > > > > Girl : Do you love me ?> > Boy : Yes Dear> > Girl : Would you die for me ?> > Boy : No, mine is undying love> > > > > > Man : How old is your father ?> > Boy : As old as me> > Man : How can that be ?> > Boy :

2005-08-18T16:51:00.000+08:00

Argh! How painfully slow time is moving these days. 1 day feels like eternity. What more a month? Sigh. He was online twice today but both times I was busy attending to students. Damn it.Me missing him is getting frustrating.I hate feeling this way.FUCK!

2005-08-18T09:45:00.000+08:00

Through the hard work of some people who are too free for their own good, they have come up with a device/software that allows you to see who deleted you from their MSN list. It's interesting to know. So these people deleted me!k0u**3@hotmail.comp***_adi@hotmail.comas***te@hotmail.comli******ted@hotmail.comri**o_su**ey838@msn.comnau**tyls_lim@hotmail.comnur_kh****ni83@hotmail.comha***d_fi*th@

2005-08-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

I told my mom about my love situation and she told me that I've wasted 2 years of friendship but I feel that it's ok. I mean, if me and him were meant to be, there's no way I can run from fate. We will end up together. So yeah, I'm letting him take his time to meet other girls and become a better man in the process. Not that he's not already a good man. He just needs to try a different dish.

2005-08-17T14:16:00.000+08:00

Even overseas, Singapore is still darn small. He has 2 friends who know me. From way back in secondary school. He was online for awhile. It's nice finally having to have direct contact with him. I wonder what horrible things the 2 guys told him about me. Yes, I was a tomboy. Yes, I had bad haircuts. Yes, I had lesbian tendencies. I can't wait for him to get back so that he can share with me all

2005-08-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

I feel absolutely restless today. I feel restless. I was planning to go to BBDC to top up my account but the rain made me change my mind and I went to Causeway Point to shop alone. Again. I was out in town yesterday alone, shopping. Alone. It's been awhile since I went out alone. I rather enjoy it. -shrugs-I came home and stared camwhoring but I'll only post 2 pictures just for shits and giggles.

2005-08-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

From me to him it's 15 cents. For him to recieve and send to me, depends on the service provider there. I've sent him 5 sms-es and 2 emails the past 3 days. 3 days. 3 days only.I just had lunch. Now, I'm feeling uber sleepy. Geoffrey's away on course. I feel very very sleepy. I said that already.Thursday, having coffee with Shawn. It's been ages since I met him! It'll be fun to catch up since the

2005-08-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

It is them who make my day at work more tolerable with their out of the world antics and quirky comments.

2005-08-15T10:06:00.000+08:00

I sent him an email late last night. I don't know when he'll get the chance to read it but yet it made me feel better. He texted me, thrice yesterday. He's unsure of the rates there. It's only been a day. Just one day. No worries, I'll get used to this. I sniffed the gift he gave me the other night just so I can remember his smell.I tossed and turn in bed last night. I couldn't sleep well. Each

2005-08-14T19:22:00.000+08:00

A Sunday evening, blasting Emery with my headphones on, marking tests papers. Nothing can beat that.It's only been a day but it feels like forever. It's only the begining. I hate feeling this way. Makes me feel like a girl. Ah well, have a good evening.Playing with Fire by EmeryPardon me for saying so but you look more pitifulThan I have ever imaginedDespite perfect fashionAnd the photographs

2005-08-14T15:24:00.000+08:00

Today is the start of one month. I thought I won't be affected in any significant way but while I lay in bed, I felt a sense of emptyness. Something felt not right. Someone was missing. The feeling made me feel very weird; like a sinking feeling in the stomach that won't go away. Sigh. I should stop thinking about it. It'll make things better. Sigh.

2005-08-13T19:26:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am home. Actually, I just reached home. Went for my driving practicals which have been moving along rather smooth. I'm halfway through stage 2 and then it's stage 3! I can't wait till it's all over and then pester my dad to buy me a car (my mom promised me he would).Went to town for a bit to meet up with Kausar and gang. They went off to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and since

2005-08-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

Everyone in the office is getting shit from the boss. Everyone, which includes yours truly. Sigh. A Friday, and we're getting this. Well, so much for the planning he does. Ah well, work is afterall work. It can't be fun all the time.From what I know, he's putting me in charge of 20 students for Model Making class which means, I have to supervise them when they use the bench saws, buffing machine,

2005-08-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

My boss likes to tell me half truth. He does that so I'd do my work instead of slacking. He is the mother of all kanchiong spiders. Made me so worried/stressed the entire morning and early afternoon only to find out that I'm not involved in the audit. Damn it. Oh well..On the brighter side of things, IPP had their presentation today. It was rather interesting to watch them present and of course

2005-08-10T08:42:00.000+08:00

I slept like a baby. I slept at 3 in the morning but yet, I had no problems waking up 3 hours later. I woke up smiling and hugging myself. ^_^ I know it sounds weird but I can't help it! I love myself and I love how things are going for me; be it work, friends or matters close to my heart. I feel less burdened after all this while. I'm still unsure sometimes but no one is ever sure.I'll be

2005-08-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

The fireworks were fantastic. The air shot from the helicopter, showed fireworks from the Padang and Marina South. Even the heartlands had fireworks display! Yishun, Tampines and Jurong East. The parade itself was boring. Not much action as previous years. The main attraction was the fireworks.It was a day well spent and yes, I have work tomorrow. ISO auditors coming to interview the department.